Forgive me, for I have blog-sinned; it’s been six weeks since my last entry.
My N-Retrospekt days are done, and to be perfectly honest, I had initially planned to “retire” from the whole blogging scene, but something wouldn’t let me. I suppose, deep down I wasn’t ready; otherwise, I would have closed up shop --- it’s not as if it hasn’t been done before. The truth of the matter, though, is blogging has become a part of me; it’s who I am.
I can’t count how many times I’ve reset, revamped, redesigned and returned to these parts. Seems like I go long periods without writing and then return and act as if I’m actually going to stick with it; after all, here I am doing it yet again. I offer no excuse or apology for sporadic entries that have been produced over the years; after all, it’s my site and I’ll post if I want to.
I hate that I’ve been doing this for over six years, yet I have nothing to show for it. I don’t have archives that span years or a long list of favorite entries from times passed. Visit my bare archives page and you’ll see that no favorite entries exist...and it will probably be a while before they do. I do have entries from way back when that I’ve held on to over the years, but other than that I have nothing except pen and a clean pad (so to speak) and somehow I’ve managed to pick up my pen again and uncontrollably ink begins to fill the page, effortlessly, as if somehow someone is dictating the words in which I hope, need and want to say. Unintentionally everything spills, free-falling from my mind, and in this moment I am alive.
Write State of Mind is my rebirth: a back to basics move, if you will.
A natural extension of myself into the blogosphere, this is all about me and the world that exists around me. By not writing, it’s as if I lost a part of me...not a limb or anything, maybe a nail. You cut nails, but they always grow back...well, maybe not always. What I’m trying to say is that I may leave every now and then, but I’ll always come back to you.
With past incarnations, I’ve pointed out the fact that my style of writing should not be indicative of my intelligence and that I had taken a sort of pro-punctuation/anti-case stance when it came to my writing. However, growing older (and hopefully a little wiser) forced me to realize that that was just silly (dare I say, pretentious?). Additionally, I no longer use Greymatter to power my site. Because it’s over five years old and doesn’t possess the strong support that other blog software has garnered over the years, one might say that Greymatter is too outdated to use in today’s modern blogging times. On top of that, it lacks certain luxuries, namely the ability to categorize posts, that now come standard with most weblog publishing software. As a result, it was time to move on.
I began blogging back in 2000, so I’ve used nearly all of the more popular blog software—Greymatter, WordPress, Textpattern, Movable Type and Pivot—generally more than once, and truth be told, I would have gone back to one of them had C. not been so kind to install Expression Engine for me. I owe her big for this one. Not only is it easy to set up, it doesn’t screw my layouts up like others have done in the past (although I suppose my inadequate coding skills could be partly to blame).
I don’t think I’ve ever put this much time and energy into one of my websites. All pages consist of valid markup. (You’re welcome.) Seriously, though, I did that because part of me still likes web design. The other part of me, however, feels that I’m much better at writing than designing; for the most part, I would have to agree so I’m cool with not seeing this site on any of the CSS showcase sites.
Over the past few years, writing has become a very cathartic experience for me. I used to keep a notebook and I’d jot down thoughts throughout the day, but now I have Write State of Mind for that and I’d like to think that I’m able to use my thoughts and feelings to express myself and write something I’m actually proud to share with others.
I should also mention that for the first time ever you can search my entries.
Now I just have to focus on writing, something I’ve been needing and wanting to do for quite some time now, so that there’s actually something to search.
With that said, here I go again…
Commentary (2)
1 week, 3 days ago on Tuesday, December 26, 2006
Looks good, I like this a lot. Stick around this time will ya?